Life Lessons From 23 Years Of Life

Life is full of experiences, lessons, mistakes and journeys. Sometimes we encounter things that amaze us, other times they destroy us. Since I turned 23 today, I thought that I would tell you some of the lessons that I have learnt through my 23 years of life.

♡ What people think about you is their problem, not yours.
♡ Not everything that you do needs to be considered as productive. Do things for fun.
♡ Inspiration is everywhere.
♡ Your instincts are there for a reason. Trust them.
♡ Love is having someone you want to take care of. Not just someone to take care of you.
♡ You’ll never regret chasing your dreams.
♡ Choose who to forgive and accept back into your life and who you should let go of.
♡ Living your life your way is important.
♡ Failure is the best teacher.
♡ Don’t wait until a new year to start something new.
♡ In loss and failure there’s opportunity for growth.
♡ It’s not your job to change people.
♡ Practising self care habits is more important that you would think.
♡ Believe in your capabilities.
♡ Avoiding impulse buying is hard but it needs to be done.
♡ Love at first sight is bullshit. It’s just sexual attraction, not love.
♡ You need to work hard to achieve your dreams.
♡ Stay humble.
♡ The kind of people that you surround yourself with will change your view on life.
♡ Don’t worry about something that can’t be changed.
♡ Choose your battles wisely.
♡ You won’t always get what you wished for that doesn’t mean you should give up.
♡ If they want to leave, let them.
♡ Take more photographs. You’ll be happy you did one day.
♡ Change can set you free.
♡ Stop trying to explain yourself to people who don’t want to listen.
♡ Kindness is free.
♡ Some people are just passing through to teach you lessons in life.
♡ Make life count and do what makes you happy.

Remember, it is within your power to live the life that you want. The people who are with you can only support you and encourage you as you reach for your goals. So, go and live the life you want.

We FINALLY Bought Disneyland Paris Annual Passes!

If you’ve ever had a conversation with me before or you follow me on Twitter, then you’ll know that I love to Visit Disneyland Paris.

Disney has been a huge part of my life for years now. Unlike most people, I didn’t grow up with Disney films other than two; Finding Nemo and Monsters Inc. Monsters Inc has always been a favourite of mine.

For my 21st birthday, Simon and I planned a trip to Disneyland Paris to celebrate. I absolutely loved it and ever since visiting for the first time, I’ve been hooked. I tried to talk Simon into getting annual passes after the first time but after a little chat, we decided there was more important things that we needed.

After another visit, I was even more desperate to get annual passes. I begged and begged but still in the end, I realised that it wasn’t the right thing to do.

That was until the 26th of July, 2019. That was the exact day that Simon and I decided to get Disneyland Pass Infinity annual passes.

First of all, we decided to phone up to buy our passes. After a quick phone call, we were told that we would have to order them through the French website. I figured that since we didn’t speak French, we would have a lot of problems but we attempted to anyway.

The website was actually pretty simple once we had translated it. We wizzed through it. That was until we came to pay for the two passes. I ended up phoning again and the accepted payment over the phone and it was super easy peasy.

The passes then arrived around two/three days later. They weren’t the official passes but the temporary passes arrived so quickly and we can pick up our official passes on our next trip.

We have already started planning our DLP trip to collect our Infinity Passes. I can’t wait to go!

Do you have annual passes for any of the Disney parks? If you have any advice or tips, let me know..

My Relationship With Make Up

I remember when I when I was around 10 years old. I had a friend who absolutely loved wearing make up. She would practise by putting it all over me and practising different styles.

I admired her a lot. She was majorly skilled and as we grew older, she just became more and more talented. She kept using me as her guinea pig and I enjoyed every minute of it.

I came to a realisation that I was much more beautiful with make up on my face. I felt more me and more confident. I felt like it was a way for me to express myself.

Slowly but surely, I started buying my own make up and testing it out on myself. I would beg my mum for money for make up and head to Body Care with my friend to buy as much eyeshadow and lipgloss as possible. Turns out though, I was completely rubbish at applying it on myself.

I kept asking my friend to help me and she tried but I still couldn’t do it. She taught me all about foundations, different shades, what order to apply everything and different brush styles. To be honest, I was still all confused!

I wasn’t going to give up there though. At the age of around 13, I started watching YouTube videos and tutorials all about make up. I learnt and studied every single day. When I turned 14, I got my first boyfriend who I wanted to look good for. I used that as motivation to keep on learning. I figured, he would only like me if I was pretty and to be pretty, I needed to wear make up.

So, I finally learnt how to apply it. Not well but good enough!

When I turned 16, I got a new boyfriend. He would tell me that he liked my face much more natural. I couldn’t believe it, I had finally learnt how to apply make up and now he wasn’t interested at all.

So, I gave up!

I stopped wearing make up. I have hardly worn it from then up to the age of 22 which I am now. I wear it for special occasions and to take selfies but apart from that, I hardly wear it.

But, if you read one of my latest posts, you’ll know that I’m trying to get my life back together. That includes wearing make up. Yes, I feel better with it on. No, it’s not because I’m ugly. It’s because it’s a way for me to express myself and show who I want to be.

So this is me, saying to you, that I’m going to wear make up again. I’m going to regain my love for it and I’m going to start practising all over again.

Miscarriage

This is a post that I didn’t ever expect to end up writing but here we are. Today I found out that I’ve had a miscarriage and I’m heartbroken.

Let’s go back to the very beginning for a bit though.

Since I was very young, I’ve had super weird periods. My cycle was never regular and I could go a whole year without a period. You probably think that’s amazing because yay, no period but it’s not so great when you’ve always known that you wanted to be a mother.

At around age 14, I spoke to someone with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) And they told me that I had a lot of symptoms of that too. Symptoms included irregular periods, thinning hair but hair growth in other places and weight gain.

I headed to the doctors about getting a diagnoses and eventually, three years later, I was diagnosed with PCOS. The doctors were very difficult about diagnosing me. They didn’t run tests and to be honest, they hardly knew anything about the illness.

Once I had my diagnoses, the only treatment that they could offer me for it was the pill. I took that treatment option and went on about my life.

It helped regulate my periods but then came another problem; I became pregnant. The person who I was with at the time, didn’t want me to become pregnant. He accused me of not taking the pill properly and got rather angry.

He decided that the best thing for me to do was get an abortion. A few days later, I woke up in extreme pain and ended up in an ambulance heading to the hospital. It was an ectopic pregnancy. That sort of terminated itself much to the relief of my boyfriend of the time. I on the other hand, wasn’t so happy.

Fast forward about one or two years, I met Simon (my current partner). This is probably not something that you’d expect me to talk about but we started having unprotected sex very early on in the relationship. I was no longer on the pill but I guessed that I wouldn’t get pregnant again due to not treating my PCOS. I was naive.

After around five years of unprotected sexual intercourse, I seemed to be getting regular periods again. At this point I knew that I was ready for a baby. Simon wasn’t 100% sure as he was waiting for the perfect time. I think he knew though that there would never be a perfect time.

Around six weeks ago, I became pregnant.

We only decided to do a test as I was spotting and getting weird cramps but we didn’t do the test until I was 5 weeks pregnant.

Simon rushed me to the hospital as soon as we found out due to the pain I was getting. They confirmed how many weeks pregnant I was and they booked me in for an ultrasound the next day.

The ultrasound confirmed that there was a pregnancy sack and that I was five weeks pregnant. They decided to book me in for a follow up ultrasound for the following week so we could see the baby’s heartbeat.

I left on a high. I couldn’t have been more excited if I tried. Simon was nervous as heck but I was too busy being hyped to be nervous at all.

After the week had been and gone, we headed back to hospital. Over the week, I had had a lot of heavy bleeding and pain so I wasn’t expecting good news.

We headed to the early pregnancy ward who sent us down for an ultrasound. That confirmed the worst. I had miscarried.

They went over my miscarriage plan with me and sent me home. I didn’t need any treatment which is a positive but I was no happy at all.

I am meant to do a pregnancy test in two weeks to confirm that the pregnancy has cleared from my body. Once it has and I’ve had a period, I am able to try again.

I am hoping that the doctors will put me on metformin which is a medication which can help people with PCOS get pregnant.

I am hopeful for the future but heartbroken at the same time.

20 Before 2020

can you believe that we are just over halfway through the year?! It’s mad!!

With things changing in my life recently, I figured that it’s time to create some new goals to achieve in the six months that we have left of the year.

  1. Write something (almost) every day. I love to write. Whether it’s a blog post, a personal essay or a short story, writing just makes me happy.
  2. Complete a 30 day fitness challenge. I start these challenges all the time but after about three days, I quit. Let’s hope I can accomplish one this year.
  3. Actually finish a book. In the last four months, I haven’t finished a single book. I love to read but it’s just because I can’t focus on a book and I get distracted.
  4. Walk 10,000 steps or more at least four days of the week. This is probably pretty easy for me as I do a lot of walking but I thought that I would make this a goal anyway.
  5. Be more focused. My attention span is absolutely rubbish. I get distracted by the smallest thing. Plus, I’m always walking into people because I’m busy scrolling though Twitter.
  6. Wear everything I own. I have a few items of clothing that I just don’ wear. If I don’t want something anymore then the least I can do is donate it.
  7. Move somewhere bigger and safer. Simon and I are currently trying to move house as where we live in tiny and it also has a lot of dangerous people around. Fingers crossed that we find somewhere soon.
  8. Get back into photography. I used to absolutely love taking photos. I need to get back into it and start heading outside with my camera more.
  9. Turn internet friends into real life friends. I don’t have any real life friends but I have plenty of online friends. I would love to meet some of them this year.
  10. Go on a road trip. With Simon hopefully learning to drive soon, this might actually be a possibility. I love the idea of getting in the car, blasting some tunes and having a drive somewhere.
  11. Get another tattoo. I love tattoos and I love having them done. The only thing that would stop me from achieving this goal is money.
  12. Buy Disneyland Paris Annual Passes. I’ve said I’m going to get them so many time but something changes and we either can’t afford them or we just don’t have the time to go.
  13. Learn the basics of Spanish or French. I have started learning both languages on and off but I need to just pick one and stick to it.
  14. Create an upload schedule for YouTube and stick to it. I doubt this one will happen as I currently go through phases with YouTube but I can try.
  15. Get to my goal weight. I have a new perxsonal trainer and he is super lovely so hopefully he will help me reach this goal but the end of the year.
  16. Learn to cook something new. I have a habit of eating the same things, over and over again. I don’t mind too much but it would be nice to cook something new.
  17. Stretch every day. Stretching makes me feel so good so I really need to do it more often. I would love to do it in both the morning and the evening.
  18. Start a gratitude journal. I love journaling and I have an extensive collection of notbooks so I might as well use some to bring a little positivity to my life.
  19. Listen to podcasts. I’ve listened to a couple of episodes of a podcast in my life but I didn’t pay too much attention. I want to get into them though.
  20. Save up some money. I love to shop but it’s time I get serious and start a savings fund. here’s a few things that will cost a lot in the future and I need some money behind me.

So, here’s all my goals for the rest of the year. What goals do you have?

6 Things You Probably Don’t Know About Me

I started this blog in January but before that, I had been writing a blog for 5 years. I don’t have access to that blog anymore and I’ve rebranded which means that I lost a few of my older followers and gained a few new ones.

Due to the rebrand, I thought I would use my blog to reintroduce myself.

So, here’s some things about me that you might not know yet..

I am a shy extrovert

Let’s just get this straight, there is such things as a shy extrovert because shyness is not related to introversion or extroversion. I love talking to people but I am a shy person. I thrive off building rapports with people, making friends and chatting to strangers I meet on the streets. I feel great when I get talking to someone new and I feel that I can truly be myself. That doesn’t mean that I don’t get shy though. Shyness is a form of light social anxiety when a person feels awkward in public. Thus, an extrovert can be shy. Which, by the way, is a complete nightmare. I can’t do what I love to do (be sociable) because of my social anxiety.

I attemted my A Levels three times but dropped out each time

I’ve always loved learning, just not in a schooling environment. I like to learn on my own terms and even then, I struggle to retain any information. The first time I went to college, I attempted my A-levels and dropped out because I moved away. Second time, I dropped out to spend more time with an ex. Third time, I went for one day and had a panic attack. I think it’s safe to say that I won’t be trying A-levels again.

I love drawing and painting

Although I absolutely suck at it, I love to draw and paint. I find it therapeutic and it allows me to express myself freely. I stopped drawing for the longest time because I figured that I would never be good enough. However, recently I started drawing again and I love it.

I get the urge to travel almost every day

I love to travel. I think it’s because I get to escape everyday reality and explore new places. I dream of just packing a suitcase and traveling to my next destination. I would love to visit Japan and that’s where I’m hoping to book next so fingers crossed, I can make that a reality.

I rarely ever get bored

I really don’t see how someone could get bored when there are a million and one things to do in life at all times. In fact, I get very overwhelmed by the lack of time I have to get things done each day. Plus, if I do run out of things to do, I can always scroll through Twitter, write a blog post or watch YouTube videos. There’s so many content creators out there that you can never run out of content to consume.

I don’t have any friends

I know, I know, everyone says this. But for me, it;s true. I have Simon and that is it. Sure, I have internet friends who I speak to sometimes but I don’t have anyone to meet up with for a coffee. I don’t have any friends to go shopping with or go and catch a movie with. That is why I spend so much time on my own and with Simon. Not that I don’t like that. I do, I just wish I had some friends too.

What are some random facts about you that you want to share? Let me know if the comments so we can all get to know each other better!

Letter To My Future Self

Dear Future Self, 

Please take a moment to step outside or go somewhere quiet. Take in everything around you. Take in the smells, the sights and anything you can hear. I’m not too sure what you’re up to right now as I’m writing this from the past but right now, I am in the middle of a lot of stress. It’s like stress city here. But you know what helps? Just taking a moment to breathe, which is why I told you to do just that at the very start of this letter.

I wonder how things are for you now. At time time of writing this, I am unemployed, struggling with my mental health and have no friends. I hope all of that has changed by now. Hopefully you’ve grown up a little (but not too much of course) and made good choices in life.

I hope that you’ve continued to try to better yourself. I wonder if you’re at your goals now? At the time of writing this, I am going to the gym most days and working hard on my blog and YouTube in the hopes of one day turning it into a career. I wonder if you’ve managed to achieve those goals..?

I hope that you have traveled the world and even visited Japan by the time you’re re-reading this. Travelling is important to me and I know I enjoy it so I hope you still do.

Most importantly though, I hope that you’re happy. I hope that you wake up in the morning with a smile on your face and you’re ready to take on another day.

Find adventures in everyday!

Eleanor

April ’19 Round-Up

So, April is over and I thought I would share with you a few things that I got up to.

But what am I currently up to?!

Currently Watching…

Nothing. I suck at watching things unless it’s YouTubers. If you want to know which small YouTubers I have been watching then check out this post but TV wise, I haven’t watched anything for a long time.

Currently Listening To…

ANONYMOUS by Blackbear. The whole album is absolutely amazing! But my favourite song is MAKE A MESS.

Currently Playing…

Minecraft of course. I am addicted and if you know me then you definitely know that about me. I can play it for hours without a single break because it’s just so addictive.

I have been watching YouTube tutorials and tours of Minecraft home and worlds and getting my inspiration from there. So many talented Minecrafters out there!

Currently Eating…

A lot of strawberries and bananas. If you didn’t know, I’m trying to lose some weight.

I was once told that fruit has too much sugar in it and that I shouldn’t eat as much but I’m just going to ignore that as I have been eating fruit and my weight is still going down.

Currently Planning…

The future of my blog and my YouTube channel. I want to start giving them my full attention and really having a go at making them successful.

I am nearly at 500 subscribers on YouTube and will be doing a giveaway when I finally get there. Let me know what you wish to see in my giveaway..

What have you been up to this April?

Happy Birthday, Simon!

So, if you didn’t already know, today is Simon’s birthday. We will be celebrating it by taking a trip to Chester Zoo and eating lots of cake!

For Simon’s birthday, we are getting annual passes for Disneyland Paris but we aren’t getting them for a few more months. I also got him a Wild At Heart DVD boxset as that’s what he wanted.

On top of the presents, bakerdays were lovely enough to send us a letterbox cake. I got to choose the design that I wanted and what flavour we received. I chose the design and flavour as a surprise for Simon.


So the process of choosing a cake is easy but the choices are endless so you’ll have to spend a while having a think. They have plenty of options available!

I chose a Pokemon themed cake as Simon loves Pokemon, he even have a Pokemon tattoo.

The cake arrived on time and we rushed to open it. The colours on the cake were super vibrant and beautiful and the cake was a perfect consistency.

It was also the perfect size for two people to enjoy together. Although, I probably could have eaten one all to myself it was that good!

If you’re looking for a birthday surprise for someone you love or maybe you want to treat yourself, then check out bakerdays! You can find them through their website, Twitter or Instagram.

Find out more about their cake delivery and their range of cakes for kids. You won’t be disappointed!

35 Things That Make Me Happy

While I was busy writing my last post, I realised that I actually really enjoy writing about myself. I know that sounds selfish but this is MY blog so I guess if I want to make it more about me then that’s okay.

So today, I thought that I would list 35 things that make me happy..

  1. Fresh bed sheets.
  2. Gravity Falls.
  3. Taking photos.
  4. Instagram.
  5. Chicken nuggets.
  6. Wearing hoodies.
  7. Visiting sea life.
  8. Disneyland Paris.
  9. Speedy Wifi.
  10. Traveling.
  11. Pizza.
  12. Airplanes.
  13. Cuddles.
  14. Jewellery.
  15. Dream catchers.
  16. Pinterest.
  17. Looking at vintage photos.
  18. Music.
  19. Gaming.
  20. Completing a workout.
  21. Book shopping.
  22. Laughing.
  23. Sleeping.
  24. Being appreciated.
  25. Baby animals.
  26. Visiting the zoo.
  27. Daydreaming.
  28. Twitter.
  29. Walking through a forest.
  30. having someone play with my hair.
  31. Owls.
  32. Plushies.
  33. The colour pink.
  34. Minecraft.
  35. Making lists.

I would love to know a few things that make you happy too!