Becoming The Best Version Of Myself

After writing my post about my life lessons, I realised that even though I have learnt a few life lessons throughout my life, there’s still more that I can improve on to make myself the best version of me that I can be.

I think it’s time that I start off a journey of becoming the best version of myself. I’m going to start by making lists of traits, habits and general things that I aspire to be. I thought what better place to share these lists than right here on my blog. By putting my thoughts into writing, it will be like taking them out of my very chaotic mind and it might even help to make me feel even more accountable. Hopefully sharing my goals and aspirations with you all will encourage me to do what I need to do to get to the places that I want to be.

Productivity:

  • I want to write more blog posts in advance so that when bloggers block hits, I have something to share with you all.
  • I want to make sure I keep my home, desk area and living spaces clean.
  • I want to stop procrastinating and get things done so I have time to relax when I need to in the evenings.
  • I want to stick to one journal system and actually use the journal to organise my days.
  • I want to start managing my monthly budgets better and start saving money.

Physical Health:

  • I want to lose five stone (70lbs) before my 24th birthday (November 2020).
  • I want to drink more water instead of lemonade and other fizzy drinks.
  • I want to stop eating cake as much.
  • I want to try to follow exercises from YouTube.
  • I want to make sure that I keep on top of my personal hygiene.

Mental health:

  • I want to try looking at situations more positively instead of worrying too much.
  • I want to show more gratitude to the people who are in my life.
  • I want to cut out the toxic people in my life and make friends to replace them.
  • I want to practise forgiveness for others to protect my own sanity.
  • I want to incorporate daily meditation into my life.
  • I want to set boundaries that will protect my own wellbeing.

Hobbies:

  • I want to start practising my drawing skills and painting more.
  • I want to actually learn to play my guitar instead of looking at it just sat in the corner.
  • I want to travel more and experience as many cultures as I can.
  • I want to rekindle my love for reading.
  • I want to start taking more photographs to capture precious life moments.

I’m hoping that now I have shared these goals with you, I’ll be able to keep up with this. It’s definitely going to be a hard journey and nothing will be accomplished overnight but it will be an interesting journey. I will probably focus on a small task per week or even longer so that I can create new habits and keep my thoughts organised.

If you lovely readers are also on a journey of self improvement, what’s on your list of things to improve on?

April ’19 Round-Up

So, April is over and I thought I would share with you a few things that I got up to.

But what am I currently up to?!

Currently Watching…

Nothing. I suck at watching things unless it’s YouTubers. If you want to know which small YouTubers I have been watching then check out this post but TV wise, I haven’t watched anything for a long time.

Currently Listening To…

ANONYMOUS by Blackbear. The whole album is absolutely amazing! But my favourite song is MAKE A MESS.

Currently Playing…

Minecraft of course. I am addicted and if you know me then you definitely know that about me. I can play it for hours without a single break because it’s just so addictive.

I have been watching YouTube tutorials and tours of Minecraft home and worlds and getting my inspiration from there. So many talented Minecrafters out there!

Currently Eating…

A lot of strawberries and bananas. If you didn’t know, I’m trying to lose some weight.

I was once told that fruit has too much sugar in it and that I shouldn’t eat as much but I’m just going to ignore that as I have been eating fruit and my weight is still going down.

Currently Planning…

The future of my blog and my YouTube channel. I want to start giving them my full attention and really having a go at making them successful.

I am nearly at 500 subscribers on YouTube and will be doing a giveaway when I finally get there. Let me know what you wish to see in my giveaway..

What have you been up to this April?

An Average Day In My Life With BPD

6:00am: I wake up still tired. It makes no sense as I went to sleep at 9pm. That’s a full nine hours sleep but I still end up tired. Maybe it’s the meds, maybe it’s the depression.

6:15am: Breakfast time. I wake up starving as my meds increase my appetite.

6:30am: It’s time for my meds. I take 60mg of Fluoxetine and 20mg of Aripiprozole. I get my prescription ever Thursday and Simon stores my meds in a safe that I have no access to. This is so that I don’t take them all at once.

7:00am: After watching tv for half an hour, it’s time to get leave for the gym.

7:10am: Get on the bus and head to the gym.

7:30am: Finally arrive at the gym. I will probably have fallen asleep on the bus even though the journey was only about 10 minutes plus a 10 minute walk.

7:40am: Start working out. Exercise helps me lose weight but it definitely gives me too much thinking time. I think about life and how I’m getting nowhere. Also, everyone is staring at me, or are they?! Maybe they want me dead.

9:30am: Leave the gym after a shower and head home on the bus. Probably fell asleep again.

10:30am: Have lunch. I realise this is early but we eat early to avoid having tea late. I will explain why in a bit.

11:00am: Head to town on foot. It’s much better than getting the bus. Less people. Town is usually quiet at this time so I don’t mind being out.

3:30pm: Just arrived home from town and it’s time for tea. I am a bad cook so we have to open the windows to let the smoke out. We early early so that it’s before it gets dark so no one can shove anything horrible through the windows as we live in a not very nice area.

4:00pm: Time for getting some blogging work done. This is where I feel more comfortable; using my laptop and talking to my internet friends.

6:00pm: Time for a snack as I’m still hungry. A bowl of cereal and four pieces of toast will do.

6:05pm: Already finished eating.

6:10pm: Watch cartoons and do more blogging.

9:00pm: Head to bed feeling exhausted. Cry myself to sleep.