6 Things In Your Day-To-Day Life To Romanticise This Winter

Winter can be a pretty difficult time of year for many people. The days are shorter and the weather is colder. But that doesn’t mean there are not beautiful parts of Winter too.

It can be harder to see the beauty in life during the shorter days, but that’s just even more of a reason to find joy in the small moments. We need to romanticise those little moments in life that we usually rush through. Slow down and take a second to appreciate those little, magical moments that Winter offers us.

So, here are six things that you already do or can incorporate into your daily life this winter to make things a little more lovely.

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Self Care Ideas For A Bad Mental Health Day

Self care is important all the time can it can be difficult to practise self care when you’re going through a tough time.

On bad mental health days, it can feel like nothing is possible and we completely forget to take care of ourselves. We might even end up wrapping ourselves in a blanket and doing nothing all day.

However, when you feel like that, it’s time to pause, take a deep breath and take care of yourself. This is the perfect time to practise self care.

I have created this super simple list of ideas so that when you’re having a bad mental health day, you have some ideas of little self care activities you can try.

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A Playlist For Mental Health Recovery

My mental health sucks right now. Lockdown is draining me and I feel like I’m stuck. Right now, my main way of making myself feel less glum is listening to some motivating, spirt lifting, happy, positive songs.

Music has a weird way of making you completely change your mood and it can even give you courage that you didn’t know that you had. That is why I think that music is more important than ever right now.

I’m not sure if your mental health sucks too but I do know that a positive and uplifting playlist is great all of the time. It’s just especially great when your mental health isn’t at it’s best.

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How To Spend Time Without Your Phone

Is your phone the first thing you reach for in the morning and the last thing you touch before bed? Do you frequently pick it up “just to check”, only to look up forty-five minutes later wondering where the time has gone?

If you do, then you’re like the 99% (this is not a fact, don’t quote me, I could be exaggerating) of people who are also addicted to their phones. They are our life these days. They are full of all our details, plans and even banking so we would be pretty messed up without them really.

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Even though we love our phones a lot, and I mean a lot, a lot. We all still need a little bit of phone-free time in our lives.

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7 Self-Care Practices That Will Improve Your Mental Health

Imagine that you’re looking after a young child or a toddler. You would want to make sure that they had the best care possible. You’d make sure that they got enough sleep, let them have time to play and have fun, make sure that they have 3 meals a day and keep them clean.

Now, imagine that child is you. You deserve to be treated that way too. Just because you don’t have someone parenting you, doesn’t mean that you need to stop caring about yourself. This is why self-care is such an important thing to include in our lives.

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Becoming The Best Version Of Myself

After writing my post about my life lessons, I realised that even though I have learnt a few life lessons throughout my life, there’s still more that I can improve on to make myself the best version of me that I can be.

I think it’s time that I start off a journey of becoming the best version of myself. I’m going to start by making lists of traits, habits and general things that I aspire to be. I thought what better place to share these lists than right here on my blog. By putting my thoughts into writing, it will be like taking them out of my very chaotic mind and it might even help to make me feel even more accountable. Hopefully sharing my goals and aspirations with you all will encourage me to do what I need to do to get to the places that I want to be.

Productivity:

  • I want to write more blog posts in advance so that when bloggers block hits, I have something to share with you all.
  • I want to make sure I keep my home, desk area and living spaces clean.
  • I want to stop procrastinating and get things done so I have time to relax when I need to in the evenings.
  • I want to stick to one journal system and actually use the journal to organise my days.
  • I want to start managing my monthly budgets better and start saving money.

Physical Health:

  • I want to lose five stone (70lbs) before my 24th birthday (November 2020).
  • I want to drink more water instead of lemonade and other fizzy drinks.
  • I want to stop eating cake as much.
  • I want to try to follow exercises from YouTube.
  • I want to make sure that I keep on top of my personal hygiene.

Mental health:

  • I want to try looking at situations more positively instead of worrying too much.
  • I want to show more gratitude to the people who are in my life.
  • I want to cut out the toxic people in my life and make friends to replace them.
  • I want to practise forgiveness for others to protect my own sanity.
  • I want to incorporate daily meditation into my life.
  • I want to set boundaries that will protect my own wellbeing.

Hobbies:

  • I want to start practising my drawing skills and painting more.
  • I want to actually learn to play my guitar instead of looking at it just sat in the corner.
  • I want to travel more and experience as many cultures as I can.
  • I want to rekindle my love for reading.
  • I want to start taking more photographs to capture precious life moments.

I’m hoping that now I have shared these goals with you, I’ll be able to keep up with this. It’s definitely going to be a hard journey and nothing will be accomplished overnight but it will be an interesting journey. I will probably focus on a small task per week or even longer so that I can create new habits and keep my thoughts organised.

If you lovely readers are also on a journey of self improvement, what’s on your list of things to improve on?

An Average Day In My Life With BPD

6:00am: I wake up still tired. It makes no sense as I went to sleep at 9pm. That’s a full nine hours sleep but I still end up tired. Maybe it’s the meds, maybe it’s the depression.

6:15am: Breakfast time. I wake up starving as my meds increase my appetite.

6:30am: It’s time for my meds. I take 60mg of Fluoxetine and 20mg of Aripiprozole. I get my prescription ever Thursday and Simon stores my meds in a safe that I have no access to. This is so that I don’t take them all at once.

7:00am: After watching tv for half an hour, it’s time to get leave for the gym.

7:10am: Get on the bus and head to the gym.

7:30am: Finally arrive at the gym. I will probably have fallen asleep on the bus even though the journey was only about 10 minutes plus a 10 minute walk.

7:40am: Start working out. Exercise helps me lose weight but it definitely gives me too much thinking time. I think about life and how I’m getting nowhere. Also, everyone is staring at me, or are they?! Maybe they want me dead.

9:30am: Leave the gym after a shower and head home on the bus. Probably fell asleep again.

10:30am: Have lunch. I realise this is early but we eat early to avoid having tea late. I will explain why in a bit.

11:00am: Head to town on foot. It’s much better than getting the bus. Less people. Town is usually quiet at this time so I don’t mind being out.

3:30pm: Just arrived home from town and it’s time for tea. I am a bad cook so we have to open the windows to let the smoke out. We early early so that it’s before it gets dark so no one can shove anything horrible through the windows as we live in a not very nice area.

4:00pm: Time for getting some blogging work done. This is where I feel more comfortable; using my laptop and talking to my internet friends.

6:00pm: Time for a snack as I’m still hungry. A bowl of cereal and four pieces of toast will do.

6:05pm: Already finished eating.

6:10pm: Watch cartoons and do more blogging.

9:00pm: Head to bed feeling exhausted. Cry myself to sleep.

A Post On Not Working Due To Poor Health

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about things recently until I got pretty sad and upset. So I thought to myself, why not write a blog post expressing how I feel?!

Since leaving school and college, I have had a few jobs. I worked in the cinema, a gaming shop and in a hotel. I even volunteered in a few charity shops. However, I haven’t been able to keep any of my jobs or volunteering experiences.

If you know me then you should know that I struggle with mental health issues. These problems developed at around age sixteen when I was leaving high school and heading to college. I didn’t quite manage to complete a college course because of these mental health issues.

As I mentioned, I have had plenty of jobs but I never managed to keep any. I was fired from one and quit the other two.

That’s when I discovered that working just wasn’t for me. Not for being lazy or anything but trust me, I tried to work, just because of my health.

Not being able to work makes me feel like such a failure. I feel like I can’t do anything right if I can’t even keep a job like ‘normal’ people. There’s many opportunities that arise when you work. You can learn new skills, work in a team, build your confidence and you can feel a sense of fulfilment from working. Sadly, I don’t get to experience those things.

It makes me sad that I’m missing out on these opportunities and often this makes my mental health even worse. I feel as though it’s a vicious circle.

I have career dreams and goals and I want to live my dream life. When I think about the future and how that might never happen because mentally, I’m just not strong enough to work, I feel deflated. I want to be doing more with my life than what I’m currently doing. I want to help in some sort of way and to me, getting a job feels like the only way that I can do that.

When you can’t work, people tend to assume that you’re being lazy which isn’t always the case. Sure, I’m a lazy bum but that doesn’t mean that I want to be sitting around doing nothing while you work your arse off doing a 9-5 job. I want to be there too!

Not being able to work makes me feel like I’m wasting my knowledge and everything that I worked for when I took my exams in school. I feel I should be doing more but I just can’t.

You know when you’re scrolling through social media and you see all those people that are dreading Monday morning because it means that they go back to work. Well, I want to be in that position. I want to wake up every morning and feel a sense of purpose and fulfilment.

People judge those who can’t work. They say things like ‘wow, you’re so lucky’ and ‘I wish I didn’t have to work’. It makes me feel so angry. It’s like, yeah, I’m super lucky that I can crippling anxiety when I leave the house. Lucky me! It’s not like I have a choice. I’m just not capable of working at the moment.

I look forward to the future. I hope that one day, I will be able to get a job. Even if it is just working in a supermarket or something. One day I will be strong enough to work and not have to worry about people judging me for ‘sitting around’.

Do you work at the moment? If you have mental health issues, what’s the hardest part about working for you?